Yes, that is my sink full of dirty dishes.
But then I open up my Bible. It's not magic. It is one more thing to do. But it makes all the other things 'to do' so much easier, not physically, but my heart feels more capable. My mind more resolute. My spirit more ready.
Mark 14:34, Jesus says, "My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch."
These words of Jesus are heartbreaking. Heartbreaking because we know the full context of the story. Heartbreaking because even without knowing the end of the story, this man, Jesus, was overwhelmed with sorrow. And all he wanted was for his friends to stay with him. Be in it with him.
Jesus was overwhelmed by the very fact that those whom he came to serve, the world he came to teach, the people he came to love, his closest friends... all of them were going to betray him and let him down.
Jesus knew what it was to be overwhelmed by grief, by the suffering of this world, of the work ahead of him.
Last night I was exhausted by the work. Meeting to meeting. Rushing to get programs ready for church. Kids whom I completely neglected. A sink full of dishes. A puppy that spent waaay too much time in his kennel. And I wasn't sure if any part of my day was really worth the effort because I was tired. But then, then I sat down with a group of ladies to lead Bible study. I asked a simple, opening question, "How is everyone doing tonight?" And suddenly, everyone, everyone started to share the burdens they where carrying. Burdens that normal, very tired, very good women carry.
And suddenly I realized, I could have missed it. I was tired. I wasn't sure I could do it all yesterday. But if I had canceled, or bowed out, I would have missed it.
Jesus says, "My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch."
Thank God Jesus was fully human. And isn't it just like Jesus, that the moment of his biggest heartache, all he wanted to do was spend a little time with his friends.
If I hadn't opened God's word today, I would have missed this.